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Slow poke Sears

Oct. 13th, 2012 | 05:51 pm

Screw Sears!  Ordered some towels on clearance online for in-store pickup and have been waiting for 30 minutes now at the mall for them to "find them." Bahumbug I say!  I coulda played a ranked game by nows...or studied for my midterm tomorrow (what I should be doing).

School is a real drag

Oct. 9th, 2012 | 09:18 pm

So fucking frustrated right now.  Don't think my stress levels could possibly be any higher.  Trying to sit down and write an essay I got a one day extension on and it has been a rough ride.  I am grasping for words, thought patterns, evidence or even just explanations that are just not there.  I had gotten started on the essay and had a solid opening paragraph that summarized the short story I'm writing about, but I was still unsure of my thesis or the direction I was going to take with it.  Then I knock over a glass of sweet tea that was sitting on my mousepad and some gets in my PC.  Fk.  Spend 20 minutes cleaning it yo off the floor and fanning out my PC.  It boots then it freezes.  Well my impatient ass tries to ctl+alt+delete and the bitch freezes.  So I go to power it off and I hit the fuckig standby.  Now the shit won't come out of standby.  So lost that portion of the paper.  Have now restarted the paper deciding to focus on the development of the main character and the flow is still akward and thoughts are disjointed and words are a struggle.  This sucks.  I am going to spend tomorrow dropping several classes.  15 hours OP.

Return from China

Oct. 8th, 2012 | 08:40 pm
mood: sick
music: Drumming Song - Florence + the Machine

So I'm sick again.  Mike and I were both constipated the entire trip in China despite drinking plenty of fluids (mostly water) on the plane and bringing our own meal, avoiding plane food entirely.  I am throughly convinced now that it is the Chinese diet.  Mostly the absence of whole grains in the diet.  the only fiber is provided from vegetables and fruit which are mediocre sources of fiber because they are mostly water and you must eat about 1 cup of cooked vegetable to equal the  same amount of fiber that 1/2 cup oatmeal provides.  Typical breakfast on China consisted of a bowl of congee, basically empty carbs with no fiber.  Fluids were in the form of soup or tea.  Water is also served hot in 90 degree weather!  This is thought to cool your body down by causing you to sweat.  This is untrue!  Sweating will dehydrate you.  Your body is losing liquids not replenishing them.  Cold drinks cool core body temperature.  In addition tea is a diuretic which causes frequent urination... also dehydrating you.  Now it makes sense why the bathrooms in China smell so foul, because everyone is probably dehydrated.  News flash yellow and brown colored urine is not normal!  Anyways, even after drinking water any time I could get my hands on the holy grail my urine was still consistently yellow and sometimes almost brown and smelled foul.  Since we have arrived home on Friday we have been jetlagged sleeping at odd hours mostly in the afternoon, had no energy to do homework etc, and Mike and I have had diarrhea for going on 3 days now.  Just got some proto bismol and hoping for some relief.  Brittany has called me a few times while we were sleeping in the day, and I need to return her calls but I have had no motivation to do anything.  I haven't unpacked can barely muster the energy to feed the cats or do our laundry and feel physically drained when I exert myself.  Hope this will soon pass.

20 days later....

Sep. 21st, 2012 | 01:03 pm

So I've apparently been extremely busy.  So much going on right now.  We are leaving for China next Wednesday the 26th and we have a ton of stuff to do before then.  I had to go dress shopping on Monday after class.  Luckily I found a dress that works.  I also went to have the dress Mike's mom, Lea, bought me altered.  I need to go shopping for shoes for both dresses this coming Monday after class.  We are also planning a small BBQ at the new house for Mike's coworkers and Shaun.  That has been stressful because we still have a couple of boxes to unpack plus getting everything clean (especially the yard cuz the grass has gotten long again).  I just got back from the grocery store.  I bought supplies for a dry rub for our bison back ribs plus ingredients for a home made Kentucky BBQ sauce.  Hoping the flavor doesn't fall flat on the ribs.  What else... I did have a period where I had fallen behind in all my classes except my English class but I have almost caught up now.  I am at least not turning in late work but I still have lots of reading to do.  I haven't been able to play GW2 in about a week.  And Torchlight 2 wad released yesterday.  I have been playing LOL more lately.  I really wanna get 1500 before Season 2 ends for that War Hero Janna skin. x.x. It better not suck. :/ So yum yah.  I know this isn't a very insightful nor exciting post but I am really pressed for time.  I will try to write something more heartfelt later. :P

Gimme Sympathy

Sep. 2nd, 2012 | 10:21 am
mood: thoughtful thoughtful
music: Wishing on the Same Star - Namie Amuro

Finally on the road to recovery, but I haven't quite shaken this cold completely yet. 
Barely got a wink of sleep last night.  It felt as if I were drifting between concious and unconcious.  I was asleep but completely aware of that fact.  I had difficulty falling asleep as well.  My head was swirling with thoughta and feelings that I wanted to get out.  But  I just continued to lay there and only think them.  I suppose it didn't aid the situation too terribly much that I could distinctly hear Mike's dad's roaring snore drifting into our room from across the hallway.
I spent some extra time in my English class reading and reflecting on the impact of poetry.  It makes me want to write again.  But I realize the things I wrote long ago were amateur.  But I imagine myself evolving.  In actuallity my pen will probably never hit the paper.  These times of determination motivation and inspiration are always fleeting.  For my health class I had to take this personality quiz that matched me with career paths that are fulfilling for my personality type.  To my dismay computer science (or any sciences) did not make the list.  I'll post the results later when I bring them back up.  Just lying in bed for now hoping some manner of sound sleep will pay a visit.  Wondering what this week has in store.  It's been a while since I've spent such a concetrated amount of time with Mike's parents.


Aug. 29th, 2012 | 09:56 am

Still feeling sick today and not looking forward to class at 11.  Just wanna go back to sleep already.  Planning to drop off some things at a Goodwilld donation center either on the way to school or on the way back.  And if I can muster the energy picking up some more wicker boxes from Home Goods for my closet organization project.  Pictures of the home are soon to come when it gets in better shape!  Boxes everywhere don't make for a warm welcome exactly.


Aug. 28th, 2012 | 05:00 pm

For the memories that weren't worth remembering... thank goodness for the delete button.  Certain chapters of my life are closed and can never be opened again.  I have officially gone through and deleted all nauseating (not nostalgic) entries in my journal.  Or at least the better part of them.  I know that is a portion of my life that I am erasing and it feels a bit dishonest to delete portions my journal but to be honest they are things I'd rather forget.  Mistakes I made, lies I told.

Another loss....

Mar. 9th, 2007 | 03:37 pm
mood: sad sad

So.... Kaoru's gone. I don't know what else to say but that. We took him back to the vet on Tuesday. He didn't eat at all over the weekend. The last bill was $500, and they called me back to tell me another $500 would be needed to redo the same procedures. I haven't even been able to talk about it. It seems ridiculous... to be... so torn up about a cat. I mean, he's just an animal, right? That's not true. It's weird how everything reminds me of him. It feels weird to do most everyday routines without him around. I almost feel like I made a mistake. I didn't have the money, but maybe I could have gotten a loan with a bank... who cares how high the interest rate was? I could work my ass off for that cat. I could have, but I didn't. So since Tuesday, my mind has been filled with one "what if?" after another. What if I had spent more time with him before he died? What if I worked more hours, worked harder, maybe then I would have had the money. I wonder how long it's going to take me to get over this. I thought hearing about Roscoe's death was bad, but... this was my decision. I thought it was the best, and I have to live with it.


Feb. 24th, 2007 | 10:24 am
mood: sad sad

I'm really stressed out right now. I'm fluctuating between moments of dullness to moments of overwhelming emotion and tears. We had to take Kaoru to the vet yesterday because on Thursday he was in really bad condition. For the first time since he was diagnosed with Feline Lower Urinary Tract Disease, something was blocking his bladder. They've told me that the tests they've done so far have not came back very good. He has some kidney damage, and he still won't eat even though he's getting better. There's a pretty good chance he will pull through it all, but there's also a chance he becomes blocked again. They won't have results on what exactly is causing the blocking for a few more days. If he becomes blocked again, the vet has told me they may have to euthanize him unless they send him to the emergency clinic (which will cost anywhere from $500 - $800). His bill is already $400 at the current vet. It's really hard to accept, but I guess over time since he started having this problem I've began to accept it more and more that his days are probably numbered. I can't imagine things without him. And what's even more frustrating is that I have a double today and tomorrow. That's frustrating because if they have to euthanize him because he's in too much pain, then I won't even get to see him and say goodbye. Why is this happening to him? He's like the sweetest cat in the world. I feel like it's my fault for not taking better care of him.... or for even keeping him all to myself instead of finding him a GOOD home 5 yeas ago. It already feels weird not having him around for two whole days. And with a $400 bill whether he dies or not, I have no choice but to work. But it's been really hard to smile while I'm there. I'm not good at handling losses.... I don't want to lose him. I have to start getting ready for work, and thinking about all this is getting me too worked up anyways.

Two More Months and A New Year

Jan. 3rd, 2007 | 01:40 pm
mood: cheerful cheerful
music: Dream - K. Will

A lot has happened in two months... I can't possibly remember everything.

I struggled a lot with trying to stay with Olive Garden. After becoming sick with a pretty nasty and persistent cold, I tried calling in at Olive Garden on Sunday. And yes, I called two hours in advance - to no ado. Kind of irritating... since we have lived here... I've called in twice, and both times they told me I was required to be there - sick or not. And then when I show up, they say, "We'll get you out of here as fast as we can" like they're doing me a favor. Ugh. I also struggled with trying to keep my mouth shut. Kristin came back from maternity leave with a really bad, rude attitude. I finally finished my training at Carrabba's, and started working there at night, 5 days a weeek. Olive Garden in the morning, 6 days a week. After about a week of that, I just stopped showing up at Olive Garden. It was too exhausting, especially considering I couldn't get over the cold, because... well... I was working so much. I thought about asking Olive Garden to change my availability, but... yeah. I had asked about 10 times before to change my availability so I could work some night shifts and actually make money, and they would always refuse. So... I just thought fuck them. They already got a two weeks notice from me, and they just kept putting me on the schedule. I wasn't going to write another one and stick out another two weeks.

I am pairing up with Brandy and Brad to go to a Dir en Grey concert in a month. :DD

Ooooh Ooooh! And end of the year Asian drama reviews! Yayyy! I'm going to put these in the order of best drama to worst of 2006.

01. Love Story in Harvard (10 of 10 stars)
This drama really truly and honestly blew me away from beginning to end. I wasn't a Kim
Rae Won fan until I saw this drama. No drama I have seen has compared to this, PERIOD. I
highly recommend this drama. There wasn't a single part in this drama that disappointed
me. I really just can't praise this drama enough.

02. My Lovely Sam Soon (10 of 10 stars)
My very first K-drama, and so fucking funny. Loved it. And I could watch it again and
again. Hope to share this with a friend one day.

03. Full House (10 of 10 stars)
I meet Bi for the first time. I love the relationship between the two main characters in
this. Though the story is very similar to My Lovely Sam Soon, the relationship is quite
different. Bi does a better job of pertraying the split personality of this character.
There are moments when you see such a soft side of him... and then he puts up his front.

04. Let's Go to School, Sang Doo (9 of 10 stars)
If it weren't for the ending this would be my second favorite series. I thought the ending
just blew. But don't let that turn you off from this series. I'm a big fan of Bi's acting
and this series is HALARIOUS.

05. Nobuta Wo Produce (9 out of 10 stars)
The moral of this story is what puts it so high on ths list. The plot is a little shaky.
Making a scary girl popular? Sounds kind of lame, but this drama took me by surprise.
Kon kon.

06. Flowers for Algernon (9 of 10 stars)
I loved this book, and this series... really got me emotional. I find it harder to really
understand Japanese series though. I think the culture and mannerisms are a little more
foreign and different than American culture and traditions. I think if I knew more about
Japan I could understand this better, nonetheless... the transformation the main character
makes is awesome. I recommend the book and the series. Both are great.

07. Taiyou no Kisetsu (9 of 10 stars)
OMG, I really hated the first few episodes of this. I really did. I thought the series
was so weird, and it was going to really suck. But... man, this series was really
fascinating. Adrienne recommended it to me, and I wish she would finish it herself. She
would love it.

08. A Love To Kill (8 of 10 stars)
Get the soundtrack, it gets 10 of 10 stars. The music for this series blew me away. I
really liked the plot for the most part. The ending was lame though. And Bi's brother
jumps off the roof of his own house thinking a billboard (that has always been there) is
real? Uhm.... yeah... that part of the plot is really shaky, and they could have done
better than that. Unless they want to explain that his brother became a drug addict when
Eun Seouk broke his heart, and he was tripping on something when he fell off the building.

09. Anego (8 of 10 stars)
My very first series. And I really really fell in love with the main character (not Jin
Akanashi either :P). I truly felt the lonliness she felt. Again, the ending was a big
let down though. So it only gets 8 stars.

10. Densha Otoko (8 of 10 stars)
Very funny drama, but still... but I don't really relate to it as well as others.
Entertaining, nonetheless.

11. Moto Kare (8 of 10 stars)
This series is worth seeing just to watch Domoto Tsuyoshi.

12. Stand Up! (7 of 10 stars)
Probably partly due to bad subs, this series was still entertaining enough to finish. But
really, how much can you do with a series about 4 high school guys trying to lose their
virginity? This kind of plot doesn't really interest me in the first place. I watched it
for YamaPi.

13. Attic Cat (7 of 10 stars)
I'm a Kim Rae Won fan, but... I think this series was lacking. Maybe the love/hate
relationship was just a bit more irritating. Actually, Kim Rae Won's infatuation with
the pretty, rich girl was what was irritating. You never really see him make a sacrifice
for the main character.

Currently watching All In. And can't bring myself to finish What Star Did You Come From (starring Kim Rae Won).

The end of last year also got me in touch with some old friends. I've been talking to Brittany and Brandy pretty consistently. And that makes me happy... because... I felt for a long time that I had really lost all the friends I had. Brittany talked about visiting sometime this year. That would be really cool. Now if only I could lure Nikki here.... >:/ Hmmm...

That's about it for 2006. Maybe in another two - three months I'll make another update. XB